Grey's Anatomy Season 12 Premiere

What can I say about this episode? To be honest it's my favorite tv show and I was really excited to watch it. But during the episode, I was more sad than happy. I could feel something was missing, it wasn't the same, I could feel Derek was missing. The absence of Derek was being felt. 

When he was missing in season 11, when he was in DC, was not the same. Because you know, he was here somewhere, alive, and he was going to come back at some point but now you know he's not. And just thinking about it makes me sad. I always said I will stick with Grey's Anatomy and the cast until the end and that Grey's Anatomy can perfectly go on without him  (He was my fave character). I was wrong, I'm not saying, it's not a great show or it can go on because it can and it does; But it's not the same and we feel it. 

True Grey's Anatomy fans can admit this change but will stick with it. So Grey's Anatomy is not what it used to be without the first main cast, which means George, Izzie, Derek and Cristina. So please can we just have Cristina back? I miss her so much. I also miss my favorite character Lexie. 

And Mark. And Addison. 

I loved Callie in this episode, she's so badass. The story about the young patients about bullying was so touching and beautiful. However, I have one comment about Aliya's dad. 

I understood they are Muslims, and I think it was racist to make the dad have an accent. Why a muslim can't be American? It's not the first time, I see this kind of things on American tv shows. 

Believe me, I tried. I really tried to like Maggie, Amelia and Jo. 

But I can't, I hate them. I don't understand their points on Grey's Anatomy and when they broke Mer's wall, they broke my heart! IT WAS M.A.G.I.C HOME!!! I'm really going to miss Meredith and Derek's home...  And I can't stand Jolex and Omelia. They are disgusting, I know you like them a lot but I don't. 

For beginning, I hate Owen so if he's dating someone I hate more, it's not going to work and if Alex is with someone else and not with Izzie, it upsets me. So I want them back. 

I love Mer's new hairstyle. Bailey, chief, what's better?

 I really like the evolution of Bailey since season 1. In season 1 or 2, Richard tells her : "one day it will be your office" and he was damn right. I think Bailey and Mer are the most evolving characters. 

What about Japril? 

Um... We saw them 3 seconds so can't tell. Jackson is so tall and handsome as hell. 

Next week's episode is called "walking tall" and my Mallie (Mark/Callie) feelings are exploding. "You fought, you loved, you lost, walk tall, Torres." - Mark Sloan. 

Oh yeah, the soundtrack, so I was really suprised to hear "Wrecking ball" on Grey's Anatomy but the moment was perfect so was the cover. All the covers was actually pretty good. I hope we won't hear only covers because one of the reasons I'm watching Grey's Anatomy, is for their awesome songs. I want to discover new one please. So Shonda thank you! 

Thank you for destroying my heart after the first episode of the new season! That "lesbians suicide"case, oh my... I have so many emotions about that episode.